Sunday, September 26, 2010

Na Kisi Ki Aankh Ka Noor Hoon - A Song of Pain and Despair

One of the most painful moments in your life is when you come to terms with your loneliness - the time when you finally find that all those who stood by you have left you to your own fate and gone away, chasing their own stars ....

This has been the fate of men of destiny, since time immemorial and never has this fate distinguished between emperors and paupers.... Every one, of every rank and station has gone through this at times.... Only a man who has been through the pain of the ultimate loneliness can give words to the feelings of one who has been through it.... and who else can say it better than the last Mughal Emperor, Bahadur Shah Zafar II, who on paper was the Emperor of India and in reality was the pensioner of the East Indian Company....

Can one even estimate the frustration of this man, who could neither fulfil the duties of an emperor, as was expected by his loyal populace nor could he admit his loneliness or his impotence to his populace..... It was such a pain and frustration that could give rise to this ultimate anthem of despair and frustration...

Look at the lyrics - the despondency, the pain, the anguish, the frustration.... it's enough to move anyone to tears .... add to this, the soulful music of S N Tripathi (no major accompaniments) and the 'Voice of God', Mohammed Rafi and what you have is one of the greatest songs of pain ever composed in Indian Music History.... The Movie is 'Lal Qila' ....

It begins as such:
Na Kisi Ki Aankh Ka Noor Hoon
Na Kisi Ke Dil Ka Qaraar Hoon
Jo Kisi Ke Kaam Na Aa Sake
Main Woh Ek Musht-E-Ghubaar Hoon
"I am not the apple of anyone's Sight
  Nor am I any Heart's Delight
 I am the one whose worth is little,
 A handful of Dirt is my Plight"

Can one feel the pain of the words? What can drive a person to such depths of self-flagellation except the pain of being an absolute Nothing... The poet continues:
Mera Rang Roop Bigad Gaya
Mera Yaar Mujhse Bichhad Gaya
Jo Chaman Fizaa Mein Ujad Gaya
Main Ussi ki Fasl-E-Bahaar Hoon
"The Beauty of my Youthful Days has Faded
  My Love has left me alone Un-Aided
  I am the Flower of a Garden,
 That in the Spring of my Life Stands Devastated"

I am sure, everyone who has loved truly and deeply will understand the pain of these words more than i can explain......
Main Kahan Rahoon, Main Kahan Basoon
Na Ye Mujhse Khush, Na Woh Mujhse Khush
Main Zameen Ki Peeth Ka Bojh Hoon
Main Falak Ke Dil Ka Ghubaar Hoon
"Where should I go? Where should I live? Pray Tell me
 Neither here are they happy, Neither there are they happy,
 I am the Burden of the Face of the Earth
 I am the Boil on the Heart of the Sky Preety"

The frustration of the poet is self-evident .... the fact that none care for him was enough to kill him but the poet is also aware that he's not even 'wanted'... Oh! The Pain of it All!
Paye Faateha Koi Aaye Kyoon?
Koi Char Phool Chadaaye Kyoon?
Koi Aake Shamma Jalaaye Kyoon?
Main Woh Be-Qasi Ka Mazaar Hoon
"Why should one read an Elegy on my Funeral
  Why should my Shroud be covered with Rose Petal?
  I am the Tomb of my own Frustrations,
  Why should one light on this Tomb, a Candle?"

And finally, the poet questions his own funeral ... He is aware that this world is a world of contradictions - a world where the living thirst and the dead get Ganga-Jal! Tired of this world, tired of these contradictions, the poet is now requesting all his mourners to stay away from his funeral - this is the final limit of frustration.....

And one last word on his own Identity:
Na Main Kisi Ka Raqeeb Hoon,
Na Main Kisi Ka Habeeb Hoon,
Jo Bigad Gaya Woh Naseeb Hoon,
Jo Ujad Gaya Woh Dayaar Hoon
"I am not to any Fair One a Lover,
  Not am I a Threat to Another,
  I am the Fate that's Shattered,
  A Magnificent Ruin that Stands Hither "

 May no one suffer as the protagonist here.....

Sunday, September 12, 2010

On Commitment - A Song

Love is an universal feeling and everyone claims to love at least once in his or her entire life .... But Love is no joke.... though everyone claims to have loved or lost, the truth is there are a few, a few lucky ones who have ever felt even the shadow of love - though it's true that those who find love are often the ones to repudiate it ..... There can be no greater sorrow than this for there are many who would die thirsting for a drop of love; while a few lucky ones carelessly spill the nectar of love on the parched earth of life for better prospects.....

There is nothing that's more challenging or difficult than love... Had Love been easy, every Tom, Dick or Harry could have stated that he/she is a lover but unfortunately Love is not something that can be easily understood or obtained ...

Mohabbat Ke Liye Kucch Khaas Dil Maqsoos Hotey Hain,
Ye Woh Naghma Hai Jo Har Saaz Pe Gaaya Nahin Jaata....
There are two facets to Love - the first is Commitment and the second is Attachment ... One without the other is useless; you commit because you feel attached.... but you do not attach because you commit - hence Commitment is the more important facet of Love - the one facet that determines Love....

And Commitment does not end even if the one you love stops loving you and leaves you in the middle of the road - alone and broken, helpless and defeated, for better prospects and better people; Commitment does not depend on Circumstances; it does not end because of undue pressure or total Frustration ....

Commitment doesn't end even if the one you love, finds solace in the arms of another, double-times you or leaves you for another .... Commitment is like a Contract that you sign with the blood of your heart and it is a contract of duties; not a contract of rights - so even if the one you love, fails to honour it, it has to be honoured - to the last breath, to the final drop and even beyond, if possible.....

This beautiful song, rendered by the great inimitable Mohammed Rafi, from the movie, Inteqaam (1969) is one of the best songs that display the side of Commitment that makes Love different from all other emotions....

If Love is God, Commitment is what makes God, God!
Jo Unn Ki Tamannaa Hai, Barbaad Ho Jaa
Tu Ae Dil Mohabbat Ki Qismat Banaa De
Tadap Aur Tadap Kar Abhi Jaan De De
Yun Marte Hain Mar Jaane Waale, Dikhaa De .......


Naa Unn Ka Tabassum, Tere Waaste Hai
Naa Tere Liye Unn Ki Zulfon Ke Saaye
Tu Be-Aas Phir Kyon Jiye Ja Raha Hai?
Jawaani Mein Ye Zindagaani Lutaa De ......


Sitam Yaa Karam Husn-Waalon Ki Marzi
Yehi Sochkar Koi Shikwaa Naa Karna;
Sitamgar Salaamat Rahe Husn Tera,
Yehi Unn Ko Mitne Se Pehle Dua De ....
After all, when we love someone, We do not expect the other one to love us the way, we want to be loved ... we simply love ... A love done on calculations of self-gratification and needs, is not love; it's a bargain and love can never be a Bargain......

May God grant me the Power to love ...... and more importantly to commit and remain true to my commitment; whatever be the cost and whatever be the limit

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Songs to Remember..... XII

The most interesting thing that can ever happen is that you are somewhere in some kind of mood and then suddenly a song starts playing somewhere in the background that so much empathises with your current feelings that you cannot but stop and listen....

Today as I stood, in the lobby, thinking of my decisions that I have taken since the last few months, there was for a moment, a moment of indecisiveness - did I need to do what I have been doing? was it correct on my part to do what I was doing? how was I to suffer silently the jibes and the taunts on my failed affairs of the heart and for how long..... and for a few moments, my commitments were the only factors that stopped me from taking any action that could have proved detrimental to my ethics or commitments....

It was in one such  moment of deep despair as I kept prancing down the aisle that I managed to catch a few snatches of this beautiful Kishore Kumar song, so well-written by Anand Bakshi and so aptly composed by R D Burman..... and things became better....

The song literally talks about the simple fact that one cannot please everyone .... it clearly accepts that people will talk... we should walk.... what a song, what a depth, what pain, what anguish and still what noble thoughts.... I would not like to translate these words; let it be there for all of us to just listen and love.....

Kuchh To Log Kahenge; Logon Ka Kaam Hai Kehna
Choddo! Bekaar Ki Baaton Mein , Kaheen Beet Naa Jaaye Raina

Kuchh Reet Jagat Ki Aisi Hai; Har Ek Subah Ki Sham Huyee
Tu Kaun Hai? Tera Naam Hai Kya? Sita Bhi Yahan Badnaam Huyee!
Phir Kyoon Sansaar Ki Baaton Se, Bheeg Gaye Tere Naina ???

Hum Ko Jo Taane Dete Hain, 'Hum Khoye Hain Inn Rang Raliyon Mein'
Humne Unn Ko Bhi Chhup-Chhup Ke, Aate Dekha Inn Galiyon Mein
Ye Sach Hain Jhooti Baat Nahi, Tum Bolo Ye Sach Hain Naa?
 So true ... So apt .... A world where even Sita, that most faithful and truely commited and loyal of all women, could be faulted and doubted, what respite can we expect from this world? And why should we let the world decide our decisions? Circumstances are meant to be forced to our needs, if we fall prey to Circumstances, what difference between that dog on that street, who does not have a brain to think and thoughts to communicate and we, human beings, who have everything and still lack everything!

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

An Affair To Remember - My Thoughts on Silsila (1981)

Marriage is an institution that commands respect for its powerful role in the delineation and propagation of social norms. It binds society or to be more precise, it is the chain that creates and maintains the social edifice since a marriage is not only a bonding of two individuals but also a means to bind together the strata that makes the society and thus to maintain a homogenous society. The class in which we inter-marry often decides our social hierarchy and has been used by kings and commoners alike to further their political and social ambitions. To hold marriage sanctimonious is therefore a command from the structure that survives on this edifice.

Desire that emanates from Love, on the other hand, is not something that awaits sanction from the mandarins of social etiquette. It’s a blind emotion that drowns all considerations of social norms and obligations. Like a river in flood, it can neither be arrested nor secluded within boundaries by muddy embankments or stone walls. The urge to override conventions is overpowering and many a times pays scant respect to the notion of social bonds, often at great cost both to the embankment and the river. Love has no place for artificial man-made barriers and is like a tempest that challenges and tests relationships to the codes that bind them. More has been the loss of many a nations and civilizations that have dared to stand up to this tempest, though the tempest itself has also often suffered, often fatally, the results of such confrontations......

The urge to maintain a relationship outside the confines of Marriage is a Desire that challenges Marriage to its foundations since it implies that one is not amenable to social constraints and hence not averse to finding his or her own happiness outside the sanctimonious bond. Little wonder then, that those who dare to go beyond the line are never forgiven by Society and are condemned to a life of shame and ridicule. But still it continues, for the heart cannot be dictated to and the dictates of the heart are not easily arrested by the most stringent of punishments.

Very few films have dwelt on this much-prevalent phenomenon, maybe because like the ostrich that believes that burying it's head in the mud would change reality, society, often believes that keeping a stony silence would chase the reality away. Well! If really wishes were horses, the high Mandarins of Society would ride!

Among the few that have dared and excelled are B R Chopra’s Gumraah and Yash Chopra’s Silsila. Karan Johar in 2007 also brought out a brilliant film on this concept; however I believe it could have been much better if the characterizations would have been reversed. Some other day, I will present my thoughts on that subject but today, In this review, I would like to talk about Silsila… a word which literally means an ongoing relationship.

Silsila revolves around lovers who are forced by circumstances to marry different partners but whose desire for each other’s love and company pushes them beyond their marriages and the relationship they embark on and the impact of this decision on their personal lives and that of their respective spouses.

Amitabh Bachchan as the young fiery poet who cannot accept the loss of his beloved puts in a brilliant performance. His is a performance that is full of contradictions, a man selfless enough to take over on his shoulders someone else’s miseries and at the same time, selfish enough to refuse to let go of the girl he loved even though she is married to someone else. He is all charms if need be, but can also be also callous and self-important, if required. What do you call a man who can love with an intensity that sears but can also trivialize that same love with a brutality that shocks? A formidable characterization .... This role at the hand of a lesser actor would have become too negative for redemption but the actor manages to walk a delicate tight-rope and keep the character lovable despite his flaws.

Rekha as his female counterpart who similarly cannot look beyond the man she loved puts in a moving performance. Love for a woman is all about self and security; it's rare to find a woman who can actually stand true to her commitments when put to test by circumstances ... But her is a woman, who dares to do the impossible.... though it's true that at the final stand, she does falter, she can be forgiven her transgressions.... for her partner also has feet of clay...

Our society is a patriarchal society and often the woman is blamed for all the transgressions of men and in such a scenario, it’s difficult for an actress to walk the thin rope but Rekha manages to do it with her characteristic élan. Her performance has all the nuances of a virtuoso and she manages to hold her own against veteran and seasoned performers.

Jaya Bhaduri as Amitabh’s wife pitches in with an impressive mature performance. Her’s is the role that requires a deep sense of resignation and hurt that transcends all silence but screams at self…. How do you react to a difficult, unsurmountable challenge? Simple! Watch Jaya ... A difficult performance but the actress manages to pull it off with exceptional ease. No doubt Jaya was considered the most talented actress of her time; a worthy successor to Meena and Nutan and a precursor to Shabana and Smita. Her confrontation with Rekha is a defining moment in the film.

But the man who captures our hearts with his simple, understated and calm performance is the great Sanjeev Kumar...... As Rekha’s husband, he pitches in with a bravura performance, that's both memorable and mesmerizing... . The great actor that he was, Sanjeev stands tall among so many excellent performances and his expressions of loss and loss along with his silence are so deafening that you wish he would not have to suffer the indignity heaped on him. His conversation with Jaya in the restaurant is exceptionally brilliant as is his sugar-coated advice to Rekha simply marvelous. Who can forget the pain and the frustration that Sanjeev portrays with a look and a twitch...

Generations of lesser actors would spend tomes of dailogues and spend tons of footage and still get nowhere .... but here is an actor who portrays a cuckold with a grim smile while he observes his wife being seranaded in broad daylight by her lover and all the while his decency and upbringing does not let him let go of his temper.... That's Sanjeev Kumar for you.... an actor that defines excellence!

Shashi Kapoor in his short role is effervescent. Kulbhushan Kharbanda does justice to his role while Devan Verma is at his sarcastic best.

Shiv-Hari in their first score for Hindi films come up with some gems of vintage value. While Amitabh is at his effervescent best with ‘Rang Barse’ a Holi song penned by his father Harivanshrai Bachchan and soothingly soft with ‘Neela Aasmaan’, Kishore and Lata combine to give romanticism a new twist with their title song. ‘Ye Kahan Aa Gaye Hum’ is another song that describes the predicament of its lead actors effectively. The soliloquy ‘Main Aur Meri Tanhayee’ by Javed Akhtar is still heard on the streets after 25 years.

This is Yash Chopra at his romantic best. Long before Yashraj films became a mass factory producing romantic candyfloss of no value, the director had already proved his capability with some of the best romantic films ever made in India. Silsila is definitely one of them. The director proves why despite a career that began in 1959, he is still a hot draw in 2007 with this sensitive and emotional portrayal of an extra-marital affair. If the film does not become either vulgar or preachy, it’s to the credit of the director who knows on where to draw the line and still maintain sensationalism.

Every adult of consenting age has the right and the freedom to decide on his or her life but before taking a step as irrevocable as this, a thought should be given to the consequences of this move – not only on you but also on the other two - the spouse and the lover; move ahead by all means, but once you do, stand tall but please find out before moving ahead if your hope has the same convictions as you.... it would not look good to find yourself standing on the road waiting for a lover who loved his / her own security more than you. In today's world, there is no word more abused than Commitment; though it's the most important word in any Relationship.....

After all, it’s all about making and maintaining a Relationship – it’s all about a Silsila!

Saturday, July 31, 2010

The Truth and My Truth - My Thoughts on Sau Jhoot, Ek Sach (2005)

In every argument, there are three sides – there’s my side, there’s your side and then there is Truth’s side…. Unfortunately there are few if any who are inclined to look at any event from the third angle. The first and the second invariably are often the only arbitrators of what the truth may be, irrespective of whatever it maybe. Actually, more than the truth, we all are interested in maintaining our version of truth – simply because our version inevitably makes us the hero of the event and justifies all our actions. Hence, what we consider Truth is often a half-truth – a truth of convenience.  Sometimes, the truth of convenience may be so different from the actual truth that one cannot even be sure whether, it can be considered the truth or it's at best only a travesty of the truth. In such cases, Conscience is often the only thing that remains of the truth, although by itself conscience, however strong, can never be a substitute to the truth. Men live their entire lives in the hope of a permanent escape from its clutches but conscience is like the web of a canny spider; the more you try to run away, the more it binds you and brings you within the ambit of the truth.

Nothing is more dangerous than a half-truth. Unfortunately, nothing is more common than a half-truth. In a bid to play up to our conscience, all of us end up dressing our versions of the truth as if it’s the only version; never mind the repercussions of this unhealthy exercise on our lives.

Based on one of the best psychological stories ever (An Inspector Calls by J B Priestley), “Sau Jhooth Ek Sach” is a brilliant rendition of the hour of confession and redemption and its aftereffects on a family that prides itself on its high class morality and values. Although the film drives heavily from the Uttam Kumar’s classic Bengali movie, “Thana Theke Ashchi”, the brilliance of the plot lies in the way the director has not implanted the movie in the current milieu but successfully made it relevant to today’s age and times.

Set in the house of a famous and respected industrialist and spread over the period of one night, – but with periodic flashbacks of the dark acts of it’s characters- the film studies in deep detail the impact of a half-truth on a family that lives in the shadow of it’s conscience, in selective remembrance of the victim of their acts of omission and commission and the gradual coming of age of the unpleasant Truth.

Mammooty in the author-backed role of the no-nonsense Inspector Vivek is perfectly cast in the role of a man who is in the singular pursuit of the Truth. The quiet professionalism, the silent demeanour, the stern yet benevolent look all combine to add an air of mystery to a characterization that pervades the inner conscience of the viewer and chills him to the bone. The actor not only gives out an aura of mystery but also is responsible for the curiosity. The only point of his performance that jars somewhat is his diction which jars to the point that at times, you fell, wouldn't it have been better if the dialogues were dubbed. However, to the whole, the actor remains as much a part of the movie as required and as the movie progresses, one just gets deeper into the narrative and forgets all about the diction.

In direct contrast to Inspector Vivek, is the character of Vikram Gokhale as the unrepentant industrialist Vikrant Pradhan. In a role that signifies and brings to fore the other side of human nature, the deception, the greed, the self-serving capacity of the multitude of those who treat truth as a personal fiefdom, Vikram manages to walk tall over a carcass of seemingly broken dreams and ambitions. His ruthlessness, his habitual stab at authority and power, his perfect take on the state of inebriation all go towards making him the perfect example of a man who has traded off his conscience for his ambitions in life. Vikram, though a good actor, has never been given the kind of canvas that could have showcased his versatility in the industry so it's indeed a connisuer's delight to see him in an author-backed role in this production and needless to say, he proves equal to the task.

Joy Sengupta as the defeatist face of today’s youth, as someone who is unable to stand for his own principles but who tries to blend his own identity with the group identity is brilliant. As a man who is willing to trade his own individuality in the hope of gaining an identity, Joy’s portrayal is one of the most earnest seen in recent times. The actor manages to effortlessly convey the frustration and the duplicity of a human being whose existence and life is not his own but a favour from his ancestors. Secondly, his performance throws an indelible light on the question - Do I need to destroy my identity to be a part of my peers? A pertinent question for many in our generation, today.

Neha Dubey is efficient in her portrayal of a girl who has taken to a show of supercilious arrogance to hide her own insecurities. As a woman who suffers from an inferiority complex, Neha brings to the character of Zoya an inherent empathy. The scene wherein the character faces the mirror and is unable to appreciate her own self shows a lack of self-esteem that is a masterstroke of performance. As a person who seeks appreciation of her beauty in the eyes of the others, Neha scores brilliantly. Her mother, Lillette Dubey as a woman who has no identity beyond being a mother and a wife is brilliant. Kiran Janjani on the other hand as a man labouring beneath the shadow of his own conscience is true to the script.

It’s rare for a director to take up such a complex and difficult subject for his debut. Normally first-time directors shy away from such attempts. In this context it’s really an evidence of the director’s self-belief and trust in his own directorial abilities that not only did he take up the challenge but has also been brilliant both in the characterization of the actors and the execution of the story. The way in which he builds up the pressure, giving the audience small hints here and there and still keeping them confused till the end is the hallmark of an accomplished director and hence it’s no hyperbole to say that Bappaditya Roy has arrived as a director. We hope he remains true to his calling and we, as an audience, are treated to more such exciting movies.

The effect of a thriller lies in the script and no thriller can succeed without a taut script. Pankaj Kapur deserves accolades for the way he manages to keep the script taut and relentless to its end.

A movie to watch, if only to appreciate the Truth…. So what if the Truth is bitter!
 
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