Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Songs to Remember - VII (Dil Abhi Bhara Nahin!)

So far every time I have put my words to the blog, I have only been partial to songs that convey the feelings of pain, anguish, tears, loneliness and frustration but love is not only these - it's also a collection of those beautiful moments that you always wish would have stayed forever - like those beautiful vintage Kodak moments; like those moments when you wanted to caress the face of your beloved, just that one extra time, just linger onto her face for that one instant more, gaze in her deep eyes just that one second more....

It would have been the moment at the airport when you had to leave but you wanted to be with her for that one second more or that moment in the cab before you left her home or that one moment before you left the city on some job or other errand.... it could have been any of those moments.... or it could have been the moment before the farewell too...

Unwittingly, the words that would have come out at that moment would have been somewhat like the ones the great Mohammed Rafi crooned to the melodious Asha Bhonsle as magic was being created  by one of the greatest romantic pairs, Dev Anand and Sadhana on a sylvan evening in 1961 (the film is Hum Dono)
Abhi Naa Jao Chhodkar, Ke Dil Abhi Bhara Nahi
The lover is requesting his beloved to stay back as the cup of the heart has not yet drunk from the loving eyes of the beloved.....In my opinion, this is one of the best and most beautiful of all the romantic duets composed in the history of Hindi film music....

The music is soothing - just like the times when you are in the warm confines of your beloved; the lyrics are so simple and so magical just like the sweet nothings that many mutter to his or her beloved and the picturisation - so romantic one would be transported to one such day in his or her own life

Mohammed Rafi is undoubtedly the God of singers - listen to him the way he sings this song - it's just like a lover putting forth his feelings, his emotions, his frustrations, his pleas in front of that beloved who means the world to him and sometimes more than that... look at the way he caresses the word 'Abhi' and the emphasis he puts on that word, without sounding rude or angry - the words have been sung in a way to make a beloved empathize with the feelings inherent in the words.... look at the way Rafi Sahab goes about increasing the tempo of the feeling and increasing the sense of urgency in the urge - till the last line fully emcompasses the feelings of any lover -

What was is that Albert Einstein said about time being relative? A second with an enemy is equal to an age; an eternity with a beloved equal to a second - I believe every true lover can be a physicist if he decides to be - after all who can understand relativity more than a true lover?
Abhi Abhi To Aayee Ho, Bahaar Ban Ke Chhaayee Ho
Hawaa Zara Mahek To Le, Nazar Zara Bahek To Le
Ye Shaam Dhal To Le Zara, Ye Dil Sambhal To Le Zara
Main Thodi Der Ji To Loon, Nashe Ke Ghoont Pee To Loon
Abhi To Kuchh Kahaa Nahi ;Abhi To Kuchh Sunaa Nahi ..
However, the beloved is not impressed - as normally happens, she has more mundane concerns superficially but actually the real reasons are not far to find - she knows and knows quite well that if she even lingers on for that one second more, it will not be possible for her to leave the side of the lover - after all what is a beloved that does not understand the extent of the love the lover has for her...

Asha Bhonsle was never very close to my heart - I was more given to her sister Lata and of course the great Geeta and Noorjehan .... it was only after hearing this stanza that my heart got to know the power of Asha and till today, I have never felt let down by this great singer

Close your eyes and let the description of the environment seep in, in your psyche... so well has Asha brought it and then concentrate on the duality of her emotions as she struggles with her inner self that wants to stay back and her responsibilities that force her to go on...and then with a majestic strong sweep she decides to leave, declaring rather playfully to her love that their love is not one that would be easily satiated even if she stayed back for the whole night (life)
Sitaare Jhilmeela Uthhe, Charaag Jagmagaa Uthhe
Bas Ab Naa Mujh Ko Tokna, Na Badh Ke Raah Rokna
Agar Main Ruk Gayee Abhi, To Jaa Na Paaoungi Kabhi
Yahi Kahoge Tum Sadaa, Ke Dil Abhi Naheen Bharaa
Jo Khatm Ho Kisi Jagah, Ye Aisa Silasilaa Nahi ..
The lover is not easily convinced and here he puts up all his sly persuasiveness to play; listen to these words and see how the words have been used to great use by the composer and the singer as they play on both the sensual and sexual aspect of the love without lingering onto it... observe how the point of commitment is subtly mentioned and how the beloved is obliquely reminded of the challenges that are a part of any and every love affair....

Just listen to this song and see the way the great Rafi plays with each word, giving each of them an important meaning and richness that can only be done by someone whom the Gods decide to bless with talent.....Listen to how despite being so persuasive, the singer conveys the feeling of not being so by camouflaging his feelings and plaint as nothing but an expression of love
Adhuri Aans Chhod Ke, Adhuri Pyaas Chhodh Ke
Jo Roz Yun Hi Jaogi, To Kis Tarah Nibhaogi
Ke Zindagi Ki Raah Men, Jawaan Dilon Ki Chaah Men
Kaie Makaam Aayenge, Jo Hum Ko Aazmaayenge
Buraa Naa Maano Baat Ka, Ye Pyaar Hain Gila Nahi

Yahi Kahoge Tum Sadaa, Ke Dil Abhi Naheen Bharaa
Abhi Naa Jao Chhodkar, Ke Dil Abhi Bhara Nahi
And then listen to the 'Nahi' that is emphatically repeated by both Asha and Rafi - see the adamancy that's reflected in both the singer's voice and observe the differences between the two - where Rafi is adamant in a very boyish and lover-like manner, Asha is defiant in an responsible but playful manner

Jaidev has not been one of the most popular composers around - his repertoire speaks of a very few movies but the songs are so brilliant that even today, a lover and a beloved often use this songs as and when they feel so.. Such is the power of the music and such is the magic of Sahir that the words resonate on their own.... Where is music of such high brilliance? Where are lyrics that can transcend a simple discussion into such divine overtones? Where are the voices that can make one forget the world? Can any song beat this?

Abhi Dil Bhara Nahin.............................

Monday, January 26, 2009

Songs to Remember - VI

"How the hell can you be in love? Why the hell should you be in love?" I remembered these words from my school days. Although they were not spoken to me, I do remember the feelings of pain and abrasion I felt that day as if Love was an elite emotion not meant for us commoners. Something like Emperor Akbar warning his son against loving Anarkali. Today, an eternity has passed since that day and both me and my friend are older and yes, I think wiser; but still those words ring in one's mind as if it was said yesterday.

It was so difficult in those days, we were not exactly the best of the male species but the heart - it only knows how to love - and that made things worse - I remembering always muttering a sweet song within me, as if in a escapist tone, hoping as always that 'grapes that cannot be obtained are always sour'
Apni Apni Sab Ne Keh Di; Lekin Hum Chhup-Chhap Rahe
Dard Paraaya, Jisko Bhaaya; Woh Kya Apni Baat Kahe
Khamoshi Ka Ye Afsaana, Reh Jaayega Baad Mere.....
Apna Ke Har Kisi Ko Beghaana Gaayega
Har Dil Jo Pyaar KaregaWoh Gaana Gaayega
I remember being afraid to put forth my feelings; the fear of rejection was always there but more importantly the fear of losing even a glimpse or hearing a voice forever was worse - I am simply unable to understand why girls convert into budding trees of Mimosa pudica the moment a love proposal is announced. It's a love proposal, not a takeover proposal - but there it goes, the guy who dared the impossible is excised from the list of friends forever too.....

And it's in such times that I remember a beautiful song, a song that shows the feelings of one who is in love and deep love but is trying his best to stifle that love deep within his bosom knowing fully well that he cannot succeed but still unready to let that love come in the open

Aayee Zanjeer Ki Jhankar is a beautiful song that plays on this emotion and what a song it is - the pain could have not been more easily drawn - it appears as if a dagger has been stabbed into the victim's heart and from the depths of that screaming heart, love is being drawn out - like one is trying to exorcise pain from the heart in such a way such that the heart does not bleed, unwittingly making it bleed more

The song maybe about a slave and a queen but then isn't every beloved a queen herself -isn't everyone who loves a slave himself, if not to her then to his own feelings of love and emotions - and isn't this the point before which love waits and after which love fights

Do you remember Mohammed Rafi and his strong statement about the futility of trying to stop Love:
Pyaar Ki Aandhi Ruk Na Sakegi Nafrat Ki Deewaaron Se
Khoon-E-Mohabbat Na Sakega Khanjar Se Talwaaron Se
But man shoulders on, hoping to silence the voice of a storm in a breast that may not be able to hold a tea-cup....

Listen to the soft silence of the mountain that hides within it's soft interior the fierce torrent of fire that burns violently within - like a volcano that has been hiding in a dormant mountain for long; whose existence depends on being allowed to burst out but is not ready to let go; the fire of love, the desire of company, the wish of companionship it all stirs within the bosom of the slave but being a slave, the man knows that these desires are forbidden and tries to smite it within itself. The Heart has it's own feelings though and anyways, can one seriously stop the lava from bursting, the wave from rising, the wind from blowing and.... the heart for Loving! And then the heart in the coarse but firm voice of the slave - one who has lived his entire existence in the rumble and tumble of life cries out to the mind, the soul and the God that made it it's helplessness
Aayee Zanjeer Ki Jhankar, Khuda Khair Kare
Dil Hua Kis Ka Giraftaar, Khuda Khair Kare
The Slave cries out loud that his love is chained by the attitudes and feelings of his peers and his circumstances and that this chain of enormous strength is not ready to let go of him... Everytime he tries to move towards his beloved, the voice of the chains that bind him wake him up to his circumstances and he cannot think of beyond it - this constant duel with one's own self is making him feel as if he is a perpetrator of a crime on his own heart and hence to maintain the sanctity of the status quo, the heart has to be chained and tortured to ensure it does not forget that the lover and the beloved are far off from each other and cannot meet.

Listen to the pain that makes him cry out to God on the circumstances that are making life a torture for him and you will feel the grief of an unspoken love - as if the chains are being replicated in our minds too; like the chains of caste, creed, community, religion, colour or even gender

The Slave, unmindful of these restrictions continues in the same vein of pain and agony:
Jaane Ye Kaun Meri Rooh Ko Chhookar Guzraa
Ek Qayamat Huyee Bedaar, Khuda Khair Kare
The Slave further says that somewhere in the depths of his heart, he feels a soft caress of his beloved and while doing so that feather-like touch makes him forget for some time the pains of his heart - it's as if the day of final reckoning has come and the heart feels that the love of the beloved will take him across that day on the wings of his deep love for her.

But as usual, the practicality of the circumstances of the slave have made him too pragmatic to accept that such visions of love and happiness exist for him. As he says in the very next couplet,
Lamha Lamha Meri Aankhon Mein Khinchi Jaati Hai
Ek Chamakti Huyee Talwaar, Khuda Khair Kare
The distinction between the social constraints and the desires of the heart have been so beautifully captured in this one couplet. The fact that a sword is drawn through the eyes of the slave is a very clear indication to the world that society will never accept this union and the sword will be the only source of arbitration when time comes to decide. The Slave knows that his love is not enough to satiate the blood-thirsty society and that they would also harm the one the Slave professes to and does love more than his own life and so for the sake of that love, he decides to let his love die
Khoon Dil Ka Na Chhalak Jaaye Khain Aankhon Se
Ho Naa Jaaye Kahin Izhaar, Khuda NAA Kare
And so finally the slave asks God to support him by ensuring that whatever may happen, the blood that flows out of his eyes due to the transgressing sword should not fall on the sweet face of the beloved and she should not understand under any cirumstance the love that the Slave has for his 'Master' - and this time he is not asking God for mercy, he's actually imploring God to ensure that the volcano in his heart does not break the serenity of the environment and that the world does not become the fiery labyrinth of his love - Khuda Khair Kare!

But this love, this feeling of oneness, this desire of the heart, can it be always hidden - Love does break all bonds and often the beloved or the lover or sometimes both are forced to either destroy their love or be destroyed in the course of that love! So it happened with Yakud and so it has happened with many thereafter. Love cannot be hidden neither can the feelings of love

It will always come out as a poet rightly pointed out:

Ishq Aur Mushq Chhupaaye Nahin Chhupte

This song by Kabban Mirza does not only stir my heart, it also wounds me a lot. What a voice, what a clarity of expression, what an emotional touch, what a feeling of devastation! Could anyone else have brought that rawness of a slave's heart that Kabban embodies so fearlessly. It's said that Kamal Amrohi was clear that only Kabban could provide that feeling of the slave's yearning that makes one empathise with him and how true was he! Indeed, how true!

Khayam, that great maestro of unbelievable pieces of depth and refinement in human emotions has culled one of the greatest lyrics of the 1980s in Razia Sultana but what makes one feel the power of a doomed love are songs like these - what a composition, Sir! And lastly who can forget Kaifi Azmi for what he has written - impressive piece of art, impressive

The age of slaves and queens is past, but even today in modern India lots of slaves do not dare to love their queens since the spectre of the end is what reminds them of the viability of the case - and those that do - like Rizwanur end somewhere where it becomes difficult to ascertain what the slave got from his doomed love for the queen

And so the saga continues - Khuda Khair Kare!

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Love Calls - My Thoughts on Mahal (1949)

Some films are like the serene wind blowing on a placid lake - they do not excite even the remotest and slightest of the reactions; some are like the ripples that form on the surface as a gust of wind flows through - a superficial excitement of water that leaves no impression either on the water or the atmosphere.... some are like the ripples that are created when a pebble falls into the placid pool - as such the waves of ripples created increase in strength, reach a crescendo and then fall apart, leaving no trace of the events except a memory that diminishes or is embellished by the passing of time and age.

But then there are winds that flow the way only winds when excited can flow - they not only wipe up the water in a towering crescendo of power, fury and ruthlessness but create a pressure zone enough to disrupt all that is all around and leaves behind a saga of impressions formed and forever etched in the consciousness of life and time - anyone who has had the misfortune of having faced or seen the terror of a sandstorm or a hurricane or even a fast-moving whirlpool will attest to the power that can be invested in a mild breeze in it's time of fury.

The wind is not alone in possessing in it's hidden cloak such dangerous instruments of death and destruction. Such is also often the result of upheavals or momentous occasions in both life and art and since art replicates or at least tries to replicate the effects of life, more so is evident the impact of a certain event in the life and times of an environment. There are often events in life that can create such a momentous impact on life so as to leave the life shattered and in tatters, Man frustrated and sad and trying to come to terms with a devastation so immense and so dangerous that only they may survive whom God wills to survive.

Mahal (1949) was one such movie that not only left an impression but created a saga that still is as fresh as it always was and the story depicts circumstances that may still be there and are there all around us, if only we look at it closely. This was one of the last major films to come from the one-time poer centre of Hindi moviedom - Bombay Talkies; somewhat like the last hurrah of a candle that flickers in ful glory before being snuffed out by the cruel hand of fate. So it has been always and si it was with Bombay Talkies as well.

In every way, Mahal was a movie way ahead of it's time - In an age that spoke of firm social conventions, the film dared to show that a married man falling in love with a young girl outside his marriage; in an age that spoke of unthinkable social constraints, the movie showed a girl in love with a married man and ready to leave everything for him, lose everything for him; in an era when being grey was tantamount to committing harakiri, the film showcased both the hero and the heroine daring to enact characters beyond the pale; in an era when social relationships were the norm, the film dared to show lovers ready to reject anything and everything that came in the way of their love - Indeed, this was a tornado being unleashed on the sleepy, sylvian surroundings of Indian Cinema and Indian cinema and Society would never be the same again. Come to think of it, there would be no Gumraah, no Guide and definitely no Silsila if there was no Mahal in 1949!

There was more to appeciate in the movie - this was the first movie that spoke of Reincarnation as a subject (strange isn't it? - the usage of traditional symbols to break a conservative society that lives only by it's norms) - one of the most movies to use supernatural symbols and occult as the basis and still be away from the horror stories that appear to be a horror to the genre itself. If there had been no Mahal, where would be classics like Madhumati and Karz?

But the greatest success of the film was that it created two legends - both of whom would be forever evergreen and the epitome of a quality that would become their own in this great profession, never to be given, never to be claimed by any forever and ever and ever. The first was Madhubala, who went on to become the epitome of grace and beauty in the Hindi film Industry and the second was Lata Mangeshkar who went to become the voice of the nation. Such was the power and reach of this one film; such it's impact and impression!

Ashok Kumar as Hari Shankar has given one of the best performances of his career in Mahal. The role of a man who is hopelessly in love and keeps getting deeper and deeper in the dark world is so well-enacted that you can feel the mesmerising love that keeps him from his own understanding and reasons. Look at those eyes as they bulge and then dilate without being over-expressive and the way in which the great actor lets his hands and shoulders droop as if proving to one and all that sometimes love can be an intoxication - an intoxication so heady that even those who have been intoxicated cannot feel it without themselves being enamoured of it.

The scene wherein he is commanded by his beloved to kill an innocent woman who happens to be of no relation to him and who has also not done any harm to him and the way in which he approaches the murder could have made many a Thespians shake in their boots and cry their approval till they were hoarse with wonder. One can feel the mesmerism and the firm intention and the absence of all reason in that one scene and trust me, it's mindblowing. 60 years on from that fateful day, even today that scene binds itself to you so well that one has to accept the power of a performance that was done without any aid or acting classes.

Ashok Kumar had been one of the top-ranking stars and a huge box office draw throughout the late 1930s and early 1940s. However as the end of the decade approached, he found himself upstaged by younger heroes like Dilip Kumar, Raj Kapoor, Shyam and others. This was hence in a way Ashok Kumar's reply to the new Turks and an assertion of his star power. Ashok was to be a top draw star for a few years more and even thereafter when the troika established their sway over the industry and one of them, Dilip Kumar took over the reigns of super stardom, Ashok still remained a force to be reckoned with still appearing as a mature hero well into the 50s and the 60s.

Kanu Roy as Shrinath, Ashok's close bosom friend performs his role with an uncommon solidity. His reasoning and logical viewpoints perform the perfect counterfoil to the mesmerised Ashok and provide a very strong contrast to the film - one such that the viewer is forced to look at the film from both the angles and still agree to disagree with both while still making a decision of his own. Kanu is the strong shoulder that provides the movie with a strong support and makes for an interesting viewing. As an actor, Kanu has a easy way with the camera and a strong presence that makes for impressive viewing.

Vijayalakshmi as Ranjana, Hari Shankar's highly possessive, vengeful and abusive wife Kamini plays her role with a lot of spirit. Although one can feel the anger, hatred and frustration that's endemic to the character, Vijayalakshmi ensures that her act manages to be complex without being overbearing, vengeful without being disgusting and self-righteous despite being overtly wrong. Her act of finally committing suicide and making it look like a murder to implicate her husband and destroy his life and career may appear to many as a vengeful act but at the same time the manner in which the act is committed makes one understand the psychological frustrations and the depth of darkness in her heart effortlessly.

It's sad that such brilliant performers did not get a chance to display their histrionics in India but whatever little they could portray is enough to give us a glimpse of that great store of talent that was the hallmark of their performances.

Kumar as Hari's father plays his role effectively. Somehow although the actor is earnest and there is no flaw in his performance, still his role fails to win over the hearts of the audience. This could very well be the reason of the film's over-emphasis on the love story and the reincarnation angle and so can be excused still this could have been a strong point of the film too had Kumar's role been given some more meat and weightage

And then there is Madhubala. The film rides firmly on her strong shoulders. As a 16 year old girl who is both a ghost and a human being, the actress rides herself effortlessly to pristine glory. This was her first major film and she was paired with one of the biggest stars of the time but look at her face - there is not a single shred of nervousness, tension, frustration or fear on the face of the great actress. On the contrary she seems to relish the challenge and appears to be more wanting in her ambitions.

Look at the way in which she plays the ghost - there have been actresses who have played the ghost but none could bring to the character of the ghost the eerie silence, the mysterious feel, the resonating silence and the ravishing beauty that was the hallmark of this great actress. Indeed, Madhubala was one who could have risen to the stars but her own insecurities and family pressures and love problems contributed to the downfall of what could have been a stellar career.

Still Madhubala's name is forever carved in stone - from Mahal to Mughal-E-Azam, every film of hers just speaks volume of an actor that lived short but lived life the way life is supposed to be lived! It was nice knowing you Madhubala - very nice!

The music of the movie is a legend in itself - Khemchand Prakash was one of the top composers of the 1940s and is indeed one of the legends of Hindi Cinema. Too bad that composers of his stature have been forgotten by the world of celluloid. In Mahal, Khemchand created magic with one song that will never be forgotten. This song is the precursor of all songs that followed in the horror genre and has still remained as a sign of how horror film scores should be composed
Aayega, Aayega..... Aayega Aanewaala Aayega
Simple words - profound impact. I do not know what Naqshab was thinking when he wrote these simple lines but today, it has become a leitmotif and every afficiando of Hindi Music has this song on the tips of his lips
Deepak Baghair Kaise Parwaane Jal Rahe Hain
Koi Nahin Chalata Par Teer Chal Rahe Hain
What else can I say - the words speak for themselves!

It's not that the film did not have strong songs - almost all songs in the movie are brilliant - the only thing was that this song was sung by someone called Lata Mangeshkar - a woman with a voice that could make even angels sing hosannas to her.... .This was the song that gave birth to the Lata wave and the wave has today become a tsunami and today no fan of Hindi music can dare forget the name of the singer who has given so much to Hindi music

One more song that makes this album different is 'Ye Raat Phir Naa Aayegi' by Rajkumari, one of the best 'mujra' songs ever.

Kamal Amrohi was always different from the others. When he wrote, he wrote; when he directed, he directed and when he produced, he produced!

Think about this - This man made only 4 movies in his entire career; out of them 2 are considered all time classics (Mahal and Pakeezah), one is considered the strongest movie made on a feminist concept (Daera) and one, although a bitter flop (Razia Sultan) is still acclaimed for it's direction and performances - Can anyone beat this profile?

It was a challenge to create a horror-cum-thriller movie in the 1940s in India without the kind of support and finance as was available in Hollywood still look at the movie and see it's efficacy. The entire move was shot indoors and there are no cue moments, no bathing women, no sexual innuendoes, no gore, no make-up, absolutely nothing still you are bound to feel the terror in your heart. The movie also has a theme that one could not think of except in mythological films - to bring such a theme in a mainstream commercial film was unheard of but it went on to become a successful formula for the ensuing generations. The use of one song has a constant source of mystery was also unheard of but slowly became the way mystery movies would be shot henceforward.

Add to it the daring subject that had a much-married man fall for a young girl of 16 who would love him at the cost of everything and for whom he would put his life, his career and his family at stake and all this in the conservative environment of the 1940s - this was hara-kiri but the film was one of the biggest hits of the time proving yet again that Society is shaped by how men think and not how it wants men to think.

Mahal is one of those films that brought Hindi Cinema to the fore of the world - it's important that we today are able to catch it's feelings well and look back in pride at this movie of an era when people did not do movies for business but because they lived cinema!

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Songs to Remember - V

Sometimes there is a lot that has to be said and then one feels that words are not enough to convey those sentiments that one wants to speak out - when the impotency of just the said word is enough to drive one in frustration and pain. When one is at a loss to say words to explain his stand or to prove his support to someone or to just let someone know that he / she is there for the person and all that he can say are words - Words that can only convey a monotonous meaning and the context maybe lost - Many a times it has happened with me that I have said something to someone and although I have said all that I had to say with depth, conviction and passion and intensity; still at times I have felt the hollowness of the words as if the moment the words left my tongue they have acquired a meaning of their own - a meaning that is sometimes at variance with what I wished to say.
It's only Words and Words are all I have;
To tell you what I feel for you
And then the tears flow and the face looks up at the sky with anguish and pain seared into it's consciousness!
Main Apna Fasaana Keh Naa Saka
Mere Dil Ki Tamanna Dil Mein Rahi
Lo Aaj Kinaare Par Aakar.....
Armaanon Ki Kashti Doob Gayi
It's at precisely at these moments that one takes the support of music and musical accessories and somehow things look and appear better - the mood maybe sombre, but the feelings are expressed and the heart feels a kind of peace that's not often experienced.

This is especially so, specifically when the mind is not at rest and is divided over a lot of concerns, all of them important and all of them diverse and there are times when one concern may be the exact opposite of the other. But most importantly sometimes the concern is too over-riding and may lead to a lot of inner trial and tribulation.

There is one song which always comes to my mind when my mind is grappling with such issues as may threaten to rob my heart of it's peace and comfort. This is a very new song compared to the ones that normally move my heart but this song has it's own place in my heart - a place that can not be taken by any other song. From the film Razia Sultana, which was released in the year 1982 and was at it's time one of the greatest (colossal) flops of all-time, comes a song that transcends pain, anguish and gives a transcendental meaning to the yearnings of a heart, mind and soul that's decided subconsciously but in denial on a conscious level!

The song is Aye Dil-E-Nadaan and it has been sung to an haunting perfection by the songstress of Hindi Film Music - Lata Mangeshkar!

Khayaam is I believe one of the most underrated composers of his time; despite such brilliant gems as the one in Footpath discussed elsewhere and the one that's under discussion today, he was never given the respect that was due to one of the greatest composers ever to come to Indian marquee... Listen to the way, he uses his musical instruments to create a musical and magical haunting experience where the velvety tones of the great songstress combine with the magic of the tune to export us into the deserts and arid lands of the paining heart where a heart pines for it's beloved silently and softly....

The song begins with a soft precursor of a melody that slowly builds up into a tune that's as haunting as the dark night itself and then like a soft sigh of the impassioned heart - as if the heart could not bear the silence any longer - comes forth in a spasm of uncontrollable pain - the words that define the mood....
Aye Dil-E-Naadaan, Aye Dil-E-Naadaan
Aarzoo Kya Hai? Justjoo Kya Hai?
It's like the soul asking it's own tortured heart the reasons for it's restlessness - the desires that pain him; the needs that exhaust him... it's a cry that only one who has felt that uneasiness, that pain, that frustration can understand and none other can.... none other will.....

And then as if in affirmation of this feeling of frustration and pain, the soul demands the following from the heart:
Hum Bhatakte Hain! Kyoon Bhatakte Hain?
Dasht-O-Sehraa Mein.....
Aisa Lagta Hai, Mauj Pyaasi Hai
Apne Dariyaa Mein....
Kaisi Uljhan Hai! Kyoon Ye Uljhan Hai?
Ek Saaya Sa... Ru-Ba-Ru Kya Hai?
Can the feelings of the restlessness, the feelings of the frustration get any worse than this? Can the feelings be explained in more excruciating detail than this? You have everything in this world and then still you have nothing that matters in this world - nothing at all and this is a pain that refuses to let go of your heart and tugs at your soul and all you can say is that there is nothing to say.

Your soul bears the pain of that love, that feeling hanging over you like a cross but neither can you throw it away and neither can you crucify yourself over it and till you decide what you would want to do, the pain and the anguish of this being on the fence for what seems like an eternity keeps on grinding you to the ground with it's inherent frustration of inertia

So much so that now the soul screams in agony....
Kya Qayamat Hai! Kya Musibat Hai!
Kahe Nahin Sakte, Kiskaa Armaan Hai....
Zindagi Jaise Khoyee-Khoyee Hai,
Hairaan, Hairaan Hai
Ye Zameen Chup Hai; Aasmaan Chup Hai
Phir Ye Dhadkan Si Chaar Soo Kya Hai?
There is nothing that can be said any more; the soul is in excruciating pain and it knows it. The pain of not being able to confess one's feelings, the pain of not being able to commit and the pain of not being able to be with the one to whom you commit is on the fore.... Life is now hanging in the balance and the silence of being misunderstood now gnaws at one's emotions like a rat gnawing through your body while you look at it without being able to push it off you. Think about it - can the pain be worse?

But the mind, that seat of reason and intelligence that sees everything but understands nothing; that weighs everything but knows nothing; that prices everything but knows not the value of anything still persists in forcing one's heart to look at it's pain through the prism of reason
Aye Dil-E-Nadaan, Aisi Raahon Mein,
Kitne Kaante Hain....
Aarzoo Ne Har Kisi Dil Ko
Dard Baante Hainn......
Kitne Ghaayal Hain! Kitne Bismil Hain!
Is Khudaai Mein Ek Tu Kya Hai.....???
It tries to convince the heart that the pain that one is feeling now is nothing compared to the pain that one would have to go through if one accepts and goes ahead and takes the plunge - the path of love is littered with pain and suffering and why should you think it would be any different for you, it reasons out?

It's a strong argument and many a times it enough for one to retreat but sometimes the one who retreats knows that pain will on both sides of the confrontation - whether you run or whether you fight back and sometimes love comes in it's full glory and the battle is joined - rest as they say is history! whether in defeat as defiance or in victory as vanity!

Razia Sultan too decided to defy the odds and get married to the slave she loved, Yaqud creating a story that would become a beacon for centuries to come. It's true that the queen of hearts and the slave of the queen both died at the hands of the social powers that be but it's also true that in their death was immortalized the love that could throw away a throne of a nation for the sake of one who ruled the heart!

As it says......

Aarzoo Kya Hai? Justjoo Kya Hai?
 
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